This is a piece I recently commissioned from the ever wonderful shootbadcabbies.
I want to tell you all a story. It’s not something I really talk about but recently I’ve been making great progress with my therapy so I’d like to share it, if I may.
When I was young, I was sexually abused by a family friend. It’s a really long story but police had been after him for a while and it was ultimately my case that put him in prison. All my life I had coped by the idea/belief that when I turned eighteen I would visit him in prison and ask him why he did what he did. I felt like it was him who had both stolen my childhood and also made me feel like I was still that little girl in my head. I wanted closure.
Then, a few weeks before I turned eighteen, I found out by chance that he had died in prison years earlier. The opportunity for answers had been ripped away from me. I found it almost impossible to accept that I would never get closure. This happened at probably the worst time: I was at that time doing my A-Levels and my grandparents were both very ill.
It was, however, as I recall, about that time that a friend introduced me to Supernatural. To see the characters go through their own trouble, or more importantly to see them get through their trouble helped me immensely. It showed me that no matter what happens, everything would be okay.
It was a huge number of things that helped me heal. Friends, family, therapy, meeting life-time friends at my first convention (Asylum 12), travelling abroad alone…but Supernatural and its characters will forever hold a place in my heart. I’m still not 100%, and I’m still having counselling, but I’m a million times better than I was two years ago.
So thank you, Supernatural. And again endless thanks to shootbadcabbies. This is just perfect and just what I needed. ♥